life/brain update October 2025
Hi hello! It has been a hot minute, hasn’t it?
I have spent the past week or two working on my personal website. I’ve been OBSESSED to say the least.
I’m so tired of social media and mindlessly consuming endless feeds and timelines. Creating a space for my own ramblings and finally archiving my art feels so freeing. No more anxiety about what social media platform will catch fire next. No more abandoning years’ worth of art posts due to internet migrations.
I have lost 2-3 years worth of art thanks to Twitter being taken over by Musk. That’s a lot of drawings!! I do want to scavenge some old art from my dead Instagram accounts, and even rescue cringe art my 10+ year old Deviantart. Those will take a minute and I hope it’ll be worth my while. It’s a strange nostalgia and attachment to how I used to post on the internet as a teen.
I returned to my barista job back in August. There's been some company shifts and I changed my availability, so I've been handing the work better. I’m not drawing yet, but I’m trying to find my footing again after a fun Art Fight.
I'm also finally back on medication. I’ve been able to function fairly ok. Before the medication things felt really impossible. My anxiety would make me spiral and my depression would feel like the end of the world. I would sleep all day and only get up to eat a peanut butter sandwich or buy fast food because preparing anything and being perceived by my housemates felt hard. It was hard getting out of bed, but I persisted.
My room gets really messy because I still have a habit of eating takeout nearly every other day. However, I managed to finally clean and throw out more items I've been hoarding! I even got an Autumn themed candle to make my room smell fresh! So we're getting somewhere. This year has been really rough. I keep myself distracted with video games, as usual. I used to have a problem with relaxing, but I'm learning to accept that playing games is ok and a form of rest.
Rest is productive!
Games I’m currently playing:
Final Fantasy IX: My first proper final fantasy game!! There’s a lot of FFIX references in FFXIV Dawntrail, so I figured I could play it as my first FF game that isn’t an MMO. At this point I only play the story for Vivi gosh I adore them so much. I always roll my eyes whenever Zidane talks (and my partner always jokes that he’s “The Rizzler” smh). I’m 10 hours in and loving it so far! It has made me laugh many times. Except my parter keeps saying “:)” whenever I comment how silly the game’s story is. We shall see…
FFXIV: currently my static and I are progging The Weapon's Refrain (Ultimate). Crazy different pacing from UCoB!!! It’s so refreshing learning a new fight after being stuck in M8S for way too long. We welcomed two new static members as two others have stepped down and retired from raiding. No drama or anything bad thankfully! I love chatting with this group so much.
One last note I almost forgot to mention: I did get a VR Headset. The purchase was more of a depression-purchase, but I have been thinking about getting one for about a year now. I’ve been enjoying Beat Saber a ton! Rhythm games are my favorite and Beat Saber is no exception. I overworked my wrist during my first play session, so I had to get a wrist brace so that carpel tunnel doesn’t get me. Out of all the hobbies and practices I’ve had in life, Beat Saber got my wrist to hurt the most lol… I was very curious about VR Chat, but until I figure out how to get it to work with my PC, I won’t be playing too much of it. The solid week I was exploring VR Chat was super fun though! I was mesmerized by everything and how creative the worlds can get. I really hope I can do a VR twitch stream soon.
That's all I really wanted to ramble about today. Hopefully in the future I'll make blogging a monthly thing :'3 I'll see you next time !!